If there’s one thing I’m excited about from today, it’s the fact that I’ve kept working hard and I’ve managed to face my mistakes without feeling the need to berate myself.
Yes, I am aware that that’s the healthy thing to do–but it’s taken me a lot to get to this point.
The greatest thing, really, is that even though these past two days haven’t been perfect, I am feeling so damn good tonight…
After going to bed super early on Monday night because I was so exhausted, I got up on my own quite early on Tuesday–5:30AM, to be exact. I had my breakfast early, packed my lunch and snacks, got all dressed up, and I spent some time reviewing the day’s lessons. Sounds good, right? And then I went to work…
The problem wasn’t so much that I messed anything up as it was the pain in my knees. I seriously could barely stand, bending for anything (including bathroom breaks) was excruciating, and the thought of having to work out again was seriously making me want to curl in a ball and cry for a couple of hours. So I did the right thing for me–I took a day’s break from working out and I just focused on not overeating. I relaxed and read and planned out the rest of my week, but I told myself that having one great day isn’t enough to earn my feeling self-congratulatory and so I had to start all over today.
And then I overslept. I woke up too tired for real life–and for packing up my food. I was almost late for work, and seriously the day just went to hell from there. But I managed to pull myself together, teach the kids to graph equations, and shuffle home from work. And then I got here and I was just on fire!
I must confess: I totally cheated and had a Slurpee today because it was hot and my day sucked. Buuut, I cleaned all over the house, knocked a ton of things off my to-do list, and made myself a healthy, delicious dinner (as well as lunch for tomorrow). I also pushed myself through the workout again, and not only did I kick ass at it this time, I even managed to do two reps of the abs circuit! I’m a little sore now, but definitely a lot less than Monday. And I just feel soooo good about myself in general.
I could get used to this.